disability accomodations are pretty sick (15th @ Notts)

I play a lot better when I'm able to think. I had a disappointing result at Bathgate, and was a bit dejected - I'd built this up a lot in my head, and the sheer reality of going like 3-4 in an utterly unremarkable tournament day was pretty sad. I just wasn't able to make the good decisions I knew I was capable of making, lost track of what my gameplans were in the middle of games and made a ton of mistakes large and small, eroding my confidence in myself and my decks.

My friends kept telling me "Eden, you're playing two unnecessarily complicated decks, this is a huge extra mental load on you for competing, this seems like a bad idea", but at this point it feels like I'd be conceding to make a practical change like that. I like Ob! I like Seb! It just felt kinda bad not being able to do them justice.

Some honestly fairly uncoordinated practice in the interim later, I at least felt back where I started in confidence - I know my decks, I'm pretty good at them. The doubts were still there, though - will I completely choke in the tournament setting again?

There's some longer thoughts that I'm intending to write about at length at some later date here, about how it's really valuable to practice in situations similar to what you end up competing in, getting hands-on time with your decks, etc, but I didn't have the opportunity to really take much of that advice before Notts.

The single biggest thing for me at this tournament, as it turned out, was just being able to play at a fixed table at the other end of the room where it was quieter. (huge thanks to harmonbee for actively suggesting this at registration!!). The lower noise levels jammed my ability to think less, and instead of drowning in a sea of Seb triggers and Ob shuffles without being able to keep track of the game that was happening, I was able to reasonably keep on top of things. I went 4-3 in the end, and despite my level of focus on getting to top cut as a goal, I'm happy with the Netrunner I got to play.

also this is just Council's CBI list but I put in a devil charm because I was worried about not being able to trash big ice without taking several tags into eotl Nuvem. This paid off. I couldn't think of a cut so it's 47 cards now. Eye for an Eye is also an absolutely ridiculous card, especially into all the Weyland going around rn.